WHAT IS YOUR LIFE SAYING by Robert Soto

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE SAYING by Robert Soto

February 15, 2010

Deuteronomy 4:9 "Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them."

Last night while I was walking around the circle, a thought came to mind. I say walking around the circle because my doctor gave me strict orders not to dance. I couldn't help but think of the hundreds of people who are no longer with us. People who brought joy to my heart and who from time to time gave advice on my dancing or outfit or a word or two of encouragement when things were not going the way I wished. I remember elders who in times past saw potential in me yet needed to talk to me about my behavior. I remember words from friends that are no longer with us. I remember handshakes from newfound friends from other Nations who were visiting the event. I remember people who might not be with us in body any more, but whose memories I will carry until I take my last breath.

Then last night as I left the circle, a young Indian man came to me and said, "It was good seeing you again!" Another young Indian girl came to me and said, "Mr Soto, I'm sure sorry you hurt your foot. Please get better so we can see you dance again." Another young Indian boy who has done the hoop dance alongside of me for several years came to me and said, "Maybe someday we can do the hoop dance together again." One young Indian girl and her brother just came to me and gave me a hug and said, "Please take care of yourself. We want you around for a long time." So as I reflected on the day last night, I could not help but think that some day soon, I will only be a memory around this circle. Some day, the only things future generations will know of Robert Soto are the stories I leave behind for this present generation to tell. Then I remembered the words of Moses when he wrote, "Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them." What will you teach your children and the children of those who call you friend? What will they remember about you, after you take your last breath on this earth?

Robert Soto, Lipan Apache and pastor of:

McAllen Grace Brethren Church
The Native American New Life Center
Chief of Chiefs Christian Church